Just a Molecule on my Teacup


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The day after Easter 2018 as I watched “Killing Jesus” on National Geographic a thought that has surfaced before came to mind yet again.

Back in biblical days the writings of Gospel of John were the supposed true facts of Jesus life. This begged to question my mind as to how they were waiting then and still over two billion so called Christians are still waiting.

Than the thought came to me that in this life we are born, we live the best life we can. We also must take into consideration how each of us have different circumstances and how they effect our lives.
It’s as if we were in a play and the main character.
We grow old and die.Or we die younger than we should because of accidents,health problems,mayhem or self destruction.

Where do we go ?

Could it be possible that this life we lived was our heaven or hell as it very well seems to be for many. We live in pain and wonder if death is the ultimate escape and we wonder about the so called heavenly bliss of afterlife.

I for one, do not allow any 4 walls of any church too hem me in. My heart holds my beliefs. I feel we do the best we can and should treat others as we would like to be treated. Often times turning the other cheek, looking the other way or just totally avoiding anything or anyone that upsets our bliss zen state of mind and spirit.

Perhaps the air we breath holds the essence of all those we have loved, human or animal. A breeze that suddenly blows our hair all over our face,or a sudden rainstorm dampens our skin like a dewy mist,suddenly appearing and disappearing.

Could the air we breathe be minute particles of life molecules ? Could our ancestors be gently sustaining us as we continue on in life’s journey ?

So of course I did some research.
Amazing how our minds think up these things and than lo and behold their is actually some truth in it.

“It sounds unlikely, though Kean is convinced. Consider the arithmetic, he argues. Caesar’s final breath – exhaled as he was stabbed to death in the senate – would have contained about a litre of air made up of about 25 thousand million million million molecules. At the same time, a litre of air represents 0.000000000000000000001% of all the air on Earth. When you crunch these numbers, says Kean, you will find that roughly one particle of the last air that was breathed out by Caesar more than 2,000 years ago will appear in your next breath.
“Across all that distance of time and space, a few of the molecules that danced inside his lungs are dancing inside yours right now.”

Source:
https://www.theguardian.com/books/2017/jul/16/caesars-last-breath-sam-kean-review-decoding-the-secrets-of-the-air-around-us

And here is something I wrote back in 2009.

It still applies more so today:

I am experiencing some minor annoyances in the form of phone calls and email from people I have long since decided not to associate with anymore.

How in the name of Zeus did they find my number or address? Easy.

They looked you up on the Web, or Goggled you, or rang up a former mutual acquaintance.

Privacy these days is a luxury.

Be polite. But firm. “I’m very busy. Thanks but no thanks.

Hope you are well, Got to run.

The fire alarm is going off
Someone is KNOCKING
The cell phone is ringing
Gotta Pee
May take longer
I am sorry you have dialed the wrong number
My cat just threw up

Do not renew a relationship which is more work than it’s worth.

My View on being a EX Jehovah Witless

The fear of burning forever in a fiery grave without the hope of eternal bliss has put FEAR in place of Love in man’s hearts.

If you’re a religious person, it’s easy to convert and become a spiritual person, but if you’re a spiritual person, there is no way in hell, that you would ever think about, becoming a religious person.
It would be like finishing college and then starting kindergarten all over again.
Once you shed your religious skin, you will never go back.

I for one am not in denial. I am very much AWAKE and I will never go back to the pits of that organization called the Watchtower.

May my Mother rest in eternal peace awaiting the New Earth she was promised. Oh and Only 144,000 going to Heaven…please don’t get me started on that one.

I have always said “Anyway the wind blows as long as it isn’t any where near a Kingdom Hall “.

The teachings of this organization have led so many down the wrong path and all for the wrong reasons.

Our family unit was totally destroyed by the so called unconditional love showed within the organization.

We tried to get our loved ones to truly see the light and they were told we were liars and apostates.

They were not allowed to even ask questions for fear of being reprimanded.

I am not here to bash anyone.
I do not think a person’s belief system should be ridiculed.

It is after all your life and your future.

Religion has become obsolete.
The Popes are corrupt,The little Lambs are being raped and plundered by pedophiles within.

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My Purrfect Minnie

the Circle of Life


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I remember that day she literally sit up on her quilt in the bathtub.Since her stroke on February 7th 2018,it was the safest spot for her.

I should have gotten a photo in hide-sight.It was so memorable.

Going through grief for my beloved Minnie.
Thinking too much, knowing what was inevitable.

I am doing some research.

On the evening of the 6 th of March Minnie lay very still, she made no attempts at her pretend running, she had no odor about her.
She smelled sweet as always when I held her in death the following afternoon.
Right eye open; the left frozen in a wink of sorts as that was the side she was laying on. She passed peacefully in the home she had known since 2005.

In my research I read:

“Later, while interviewing a psychiatrist about complicated grief, she comments that people “often have an easier time” when the dying is slow, when you watch your beloved animal slowly disintegrate. In a sense, she says, the mourning begins before death knocks on the door, when someone is dead before they’re truly dead.”

Source:
https://longreads.com/2017/11/01/how-much-is-too-much-to-save-a-dying-cat/

In hide-sight she slept all day and wandered howling and confused at night.
She ate constantly and still wanted more. She lost more weight very quickly.
She had gotten her bowels straight after so many years of the IBS stress China brought upon her.
She sit and stared at her water bowl,or laid next to the frog fountain in awe of the trickling waterfall cascading down.

She no longer sought out lap time and would let me hold her but soon became agitated.

It was as if she was getting me used to the fact that she was leaving me.

After her stroke when she could no longer walk, she allowed me to care for her. She still snuggled her head in the palm of my hand and suckled my neck like old times.

I will remember my precious Minnie as my purrfect feline.
The one that threw up in the litter box, never on the floor.
The one that was never sick except once with a URI.
The one who always came when I called her name.
The unconditional love she gave.
I will be loving her always.

Adopted at 11 months of age January 7th 2004- Rainbow Bridge March 7th 2018 (Age 15 Years)

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If Minnie Cat Could talk

Will your heart hold on with my love?  Will it keep on beating as you lay a top my chest.


My Minnie, My love

Will your heart hold on with my love?  Will it keep on beating as you lay a top my chest.

Your purr sounding so purr-fect

I am thankful for each purr and meow you greet me with.

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Minnie says:

If I could talk.

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I would tell my purr~son how much I dearly love her. I would thank her for her kind and compassionate heart. Her unconditional loving care since the day she adopted me in 2004.

I was 11 months old and had been at the shelter here in Key West. I was rescued off the street at 4 months with  a belly full of kitties.

I would have been a great mama.

I will be 15 on Valentines Day.

 

This past few years I have slowed down.

I know the bridge they speak of with the Rainbows is getting closer for me. I have no canines now, my eyes have brown specks and I don’t hear as well as I once did. I move much slower and appreciate my purr-son taking the frame off her bed so I can still get up easier.

I love sleeping beside her. I have always been a lap cat. Lately I just find a good napping spot. I know she misses my cuddles and purrs, but in my own way I am preparing her for future days that will eventually  come.

Mama knows I am a sweetheart.

I never bit her even when I had teeth, not once. I never  left my home to venture outdoors. I think I may be the only cat that is actually so fastidious I go to the litter box to throw up any hair balls.

That makes me really special, I know I am.

They say on the other side of Rainbow Bridge I will see my favorite mate Shy. I sure do miss him and the way he cleaned my ears. Mama does that now.

I will be as I was as a kitten full of imagination and vigor.

I never did do much meowing unless I am hungry. I know I make this  endearing hum, no word for it.

Then of course my Moto Purr which comes out of the blue, especially sleeping at my purr-son’s side or getting  my daily massage.

I always wag my tail high in the air and I am stealth as cats come.

My purr-son calls me her rattle tail.

Of course she occasionally calls me Minnie Garbo, Minnie Muffin, Minnie Penny.

Such sweet names for me.

In 2011 my Purr-son took in a stranger.

Her name is China and she was a mere 12 weeks old. Needless to say this cat hated me and I her. I suffered from bullying and the torture of IBS runnies for many years.

We still do not bond like Shy and me but we do walk past each other without trying to kill the other.

I am and always will be the Queen.

I have never eaten any of your birds like when China ate the Blue parakeet.

I love you.

I love Chibi the hamster too.

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We’ve been so close, we two, these years, Don’t let your heart hold tears.

When I cross the Rainbow’s Bridge; SMILE, FOR WE WALKED TOGETHER FOR AWHILE

Be Like a CAT

Human have lots to learn from our pets.

They live life in the present, no drama, no muss, and no fuss.

Maybe some fuss but completely on their terms.

That is because animals don’t care what others think about them.

They spontaneously do what makes them happy at that very moment, eat when they are hungry, sleep anywhere at any time, and ask when they want affection. all the “coulds”, “shoulds”, and “what ifs” don’t exist.

Take time to enjoy some sunbeams.

Be finicky. Why eat something unless you are 100% positive you are going to enjoy it?

Take lots of naps.

Don’t hold grudges.

In multi-cat households, smack downs happen all the time, but just a little while later, there we are on the bed, curled up together.

Why is it so hard for humans to do that?

Don’t dwell on illness. We cats rarely let on when we are feeling unwell, unless it is something important. That’s because we know it’s boring to complain endlessly about minor aches and pains.

Groom frequently, but do it for the right reasons. When we cats bathe ourselves, we aren’t trying to impress anyone. We are doing it for the sheer pleasure of looking good.

Stretch! It keeps you supple and limber. You may not need to sleep curled up into a little ball, but wouldn’t it be nice to be able to if you ever had the desire?

Sleep as much as humanly possible.

Relax and find a way to be comfortable at all times.

Groom several times a day by taking frequent showers, shaving and brushing your hair.

Play regularly.

Make others work hard to become your friend.

To act like a cat in the attitude department, don’t be overly nice to everyone you meet, but instead make them work a bit to prove themselves before you allow them into your life.

Cats spend their days sleeping,washing,eating

They have no trouble asking for what they want

They will use you as furniture if they feel like it;

and if you get in the way,you’ll get washed too with their remarkable tongues

Take care of yourself like a Cat

Get enough sleep

Eat when you feel like it

Wash yourself carefully and with deliberation

Ask for what you need

If you don’t want to be with people, hide from them

A Little Self-Absorption is good once in awhile

Catch 22 The Pharmacy

Writing Blog about this in hopes it may help someone not go through what I did for the past three months.


Writing Blog about this in hopes it may help someone not go through what I did for the past three months.

Eye sties, abscess tooth and gum, beast of a chest cold, and the antibiotic runs from Hell.

My feet (Edema) have not went down yet and I still have the shits.

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Thinking about the Hep C treatment I am about to start.

I will be posting updates on my treatment and feelings.

How it will hopefully change my quality of life and outlook.

To be free of Hep C will be so wonderful.

The doctor says I will feel so much better.

All the health issues these past 20 years THAT are supposedly directly related to the virus that resides in my body.

For the past 20 years I have totally changed so many things.

The drinking, the occasional drugs.

Remembering the first time I noticed my two fingers were so numb they felt as if they were not there.

Transient Ischemic Attack
(TIA, Mini-Stroke)

TIA I had at Home Depot and the subsequent meds for High Blood Pressure that I never had. Still do not.  After taking the aspirin and BP meds for almost 7 years, I stopped.

The RED rash and feeling ill every month like a monthly. That lasted nearly 7 years, and finally left my body.

Than the terrible swollen feet and muscle spasms that alternated between the starting and stopping Spironolactone.

Now I am taking 100 MG a day instead of the 25 MG I had stopped.

Being in the hospital after Hurricane Irma Aftermath.

The depletion of electrolytes from taking Diuretics is something not to mess around with.

That was a definite wake up for me.

The whole body heals after treatment. The moment the virus is undetected in the bloodstream, the body sends out healing signals. The liver, kidneys, spleen, and heart all get a break. In many cases, blood liver enzymes return to a normal range very quickly. This can even happen before treatment is completed.

3:59 PM 10/27/2017
1 PM Monday the 30th~Dr.G

Hep C routine TESTING is beginning again this day.

Blood tests every week, checking for Hep B.

7:54 PM 10/31/2017
Painful Muscle cramps last night and tonight.

Both hands and thigh left leg.

6:22 AM 11/2/2017
Hide sight, same eye May 4th. Again another sty in left eye. Looks like 2 small ones. Used drops, will soak with hot water later today.

I woke at 6 AM and fed the cats, uncovered the birdies and put my music on.

It’s a beautiful  morning at 76 °

Blood work and cat scan for liver abnormalities.

Must fast 6 hours before on the 7th 10 AM.
Blood work at Gato on 8th at 10 AM.

9:15 AM 11/9/2017
My lower back and femoral area’s are bothering me again.

They took 16 vials of blood from my hand vein.

10:52 AM 11/12/2017
No swollen feet’s for over a month now.

Mouth is sore inside on right side for two days now?

5:49 PM 11/17/2017

Started clindamycin for tooth abscess, stopped spironolactone  again

12:18 PM 11/18/2017
BP 126/76

11:03 AM 11/19/2017
Who Should Not Take

If you already suffer from liver or kidney disease your doctor may tell you not to take spironolactone because it can make your condition worse. Discuss these risks as well as any precautions you may need to take before using spironolactone.Spironolactone Side Effects
Side effects of spironolactone are not necessarily common, but can be serious and require medical attention when they occur. Contact your doctor regarding any reactions you have to spironolactone to help determine if you need medical attention or a change in your dosing size. These side effects include blood in the stool, chills, cloudy or dark urine, difficulty urinating, changes in urine output, diarrhea, difficulty swallowing, dizziness, dimpling of the skin, heartburn, headaches, fatigue, fast heartbeat, loss of appetite, lumps in the breasts or arms, nausea, puffiness in the face, rash, sore breasts, ulcers in the mouth, swollen lymph nodes, unusual bleeding, vomiting up blood, weight gain, wheezing, yellowing of the eyes or skin, shakiness, or tightness in the chest.

If you begin to experience convulsions, difficulty breathing, irregular heartbeat, coma, confusion, drowsiness, muscle cramps, nervousness, rash, reddened skin, numbing of the hands, feet or lips, swelling of the ankles or hands or weakness in the legs you may be suffering from an overdose of spironolactone. Contact emergency medical assistance as soon as possible. If you can, have information regarding your prescription size and how much you have taken to give the doctor some indications of what might be in your system.

Patients may be told that they need to reduce their salt intake or take on a daily exercise program while on spironolactone. You may also need to avoid sodium or potassium based supplements while you are on your medication.

This includes avoiding potassium rich foods such as prunes, banana or orange juice.

3:02 PM 11/20/2017
I acquired the Cold and chest congestion on the 15th, stayed in bed three days

Apple Cider Vinegar
It helps thin the mucus in the chest, thus relieving congestion and helping you breathe better.

Apple cider vinegar also boosts your immunity, which greatly helps prevent chest congestion in the first place.

Add 2 teaspoons of organic raw, unfiltered apple cider vinegar to a cup of warm water. It has high pH levels which break up the phlegm and clears the throat. It thins the phlegm, boosts the immune system and prevents infection.
Improve digestive health

Apple cider vinegar and honey doesn’t just prevent heartburn symptoms, but the ACV and honey remedy also boosts digestive health. The acidic nature of ACV helps to stimulate enzymes needed for healthy digestion and honey soothes many gastrointestinal problems.
These work together to help balance the delicate microflora in the gut and any antimicrobial properties that may come from antibiotics

I am wheezing really bad.

What is worse than instant Pee with cough or instant pee and poo with cough ?

I would say the latter and that is what I am dealing with now since taking the antibiotic Clindamycin.

6:47 PM 11/21/2017
Only been off Spiro three days and with the added sodium in chicken noodle, Motrin, both my feet are starting to swell.

So I have hopefully nipped it in the bud so too speak and started back on 25 mg of it twice a day instead of the 100 mg.

7:35 AM 11/22/2017
I finished up the antibiotics.

Two days of loose, very explosive diarrhea. No change in mouth at all.  Still feels the same as it did last week when I went to the dentist.

Consider possibility of Clostridium difficile in all patients who present with diarrhea following antibiotic use

7:10 AM 11/23/2017
Running away with diarrhea, and horrid stomach cramping.

I can’t rest, still coughing, tooth no better.

7:47 AM 11/23/2017
So with my duly committed research I found some interesting things.

Spironolactone causes muscle cramping but relieves edema.

It is also known to cause mouth ulcers.

I got the mouth ulcer after my recent return to Spiro on the 6th October which Doc recommended.

My very swollen feet went down and they did not swell again until I stopped the Spiro. This happened during treatment for the abscess with the only drug Clindamycin that was not likely to conflict.

Around the same time I was being treated for the abscess after Doc appointment on the 14th.

CVS was down so the meds could not be delivered until Friday the 17th.

Prior to the (The 15th) of November I got terribly ill with a flu-like cold and chest congestion.
I stopped taking Spiro the same day Friday the 17th so I could take something for my horrid headache that the chest infection caused.

Within two days my feet swelled.

I went back on the Spiro with 25 mg AM and 25 Mg PM on the 21st of November.

My feet are still swollen, I am having explosive diarrhea and severe cramping .

The Clindamycin did nothing for the abscess.

Shut the Lid

Another smart habit to get into if you want to prevent reinfection or the spread of C diff is to close the lid of the toilet before you flush. I know you may not be able to do this in public restrooms, but at home, make sure to always close the lid before you flush. This can greatly decrease C diff bacteria from finding their way to all kinds of surfaces and objects in the bathroom. In general, it’s just a really helpful practice to get into for sanitary and health purposes.

9:23 AM 11/24/2017

21 Flagyl 500 mg every 8 hours

Started back on the 50-50 spironolactone.

7:26 AM 11/25/2017
Not running to the bathroom as often but still have much discomfort and flatulence.
Woke at 7 AM to take meds and was hit with severe headache.

Side effects of the Flagyl (metronidazole).

9:43 PM 11/25/2017
Use of clindamycin is a major risk factor for C. difficile colitis, an increasingly treatment-resistant dysentery infection.

It should be avoided if possible.

9:32 AM 11/27/2017

Two weeks today.

I still feel achy, congested. I still have the shits from the Clindamycin, taking Flagyl.

Spiro 100 mg twice a day.

Feet still swollen, not black and blue.

They look like the good year blimp.

I can only wear huge bedroom slippers and can barely stand or walk.

8:04 PM 11/27/2017
Metronidazole is both a cause and the cure for C. difficile diarrhea/colitis.

11:25 PM 11/27/2017
C. DIFFICILE TREATMENT

The most important step in treatment of C. difficile is to stop the antibiotic that allowed the infection to develop. If an antibiotic is necessary to treat an ongoing infection, the healthcare provider may choose an antibiotic that is less likely to allow further growth of C. difficile, when possible.

Antibiotic treatment — Usually an oral antibiotic (metronidazole, vancomycin, or fidaxomicin) is used to treat people who are infected with C. difficile. It is important to take each dose of the antibiotic on time and to finish the entire course of treatment (usually 10 to 14 days).

probiotic — Probiotics are “healthy” microorganisms (bacteria, yeast) that can be taken by mouth. These probiotic do not by themselves cure C. difficile infection, but they may be beneficial in selected situations. (See “Clostridium difficile and probiotic”.)

Several studies have found that probiotic reduce the risk for antibiotic-associated diarrhea in general, but their ability to prevent C. difficile infection is unclear. As a result, probiotic are not recommended routinely for diarrhea related to C. difficile except in selected situations.

While probiotic are generally safe, case reports have described serious illness and deaths related to their use in people who were critically ill or who had a weakened immune system.

Treatment of severe disease — People who become severely ill as a result of C. difficile are treated in the hospital with both oral and intravenous antibiotic and intravenous fluids. The person is monitored closely for signs of worsening disease. (See “Clostridium difficile in adults: Treatment”.)

Surgery — If a person fails to improve with antibiotics and supportive care and the infection worsens, surgery (removal of the colon) may be warranted; this is generally limited to people with life-threatening illness.

Supportive treatments for diarrhea — Diarrhea can cause a person to become dehydrated quickly, especially if it is severe. To avoid becoming dehydrated, several strategies are recommended.

Drink adequate fluids — It is important to drink an adequate amount of fluids to counteract the loss of fluids from diarrhea. The fluids should contain water, salt, and sugar. The fluids used for sweat replacement (eg, Gatorade) are not optimal, although they may be sufficient for an adult with diarrhea who is not dehydrated and is otherwise healthy. Diluted fruit juices and flavored soft drinks along with saltines  and broths or soups may also be acceptable. Fluid replacement in children should be handled differently. (See “Patient education: Acute diarrhea in children (Beyond the Basics)”.)

One way to judge hydration is by observing the color of the urine and how frequently the person urinates. Normally, urine should be light yellow to nearly colorless. A person who is well hydrated normally passes urine every three to five hours. A person who urinates infrequently or has urine that is dark yellow should drink more fluids.

If a person becomes dehydrated and is unable to take fluids by mouth, a rehydration solution can be given into a vein (intravenous fluids) in a healthcare provider’s office or in the emergency department.

Diet — There is no particular food or group of foods that is best for a person with diarrhea. However, adequate nutrition is important during an episode of acute diarrhea. For patients without an appetite, it is acceptable to consume only liquids for a short period of time. Boiled starches and cereals (egg, potatoes, noodles, rice, wheat, and oats) with salt are recommended for people with watery diarrhea; crackers, bananas, soup, and boiled vegetables may also be eaten. It is advisable to avoid fresh fruits and vegetables and milk products until the diarrhea is gone.

7:50 AM 11/29/2017
Tired of meds.

A few more doses of Flagyl.

I take the spironolactone 50 in the AM and 50 in the PM.

Alarms set for 7 and 7.

Didn’t make it to the loo on time and had a bit of an poo incident.

Feet still aching and swollen.

Can take nada for chest congestion because it clashes with Spironolactone.

Talk about a catch 22.

At least NO muscle cramping since end of October.

6:52 PM 11/29/2017
Starting to feel myself finally.

Started taking 1,000 mg of Ester C.

9:54 AM 11/30/2017
Feet still swollen?
No congestion, mostly gone finally

8:37 PM 11/30/2017
Started the “Mother” and Honey
Feet are painful and something new.

They are burning since the 21st of November 10 days

11/24/2017  Started back Spiro 50-50
I stopped taking Spiro the same day Friday the 17th so I could take something for my horrid headache that the chest infection caused.

Within two days my feet swelled.

I went back on the Spiro with 25 mg AM and 25 Mg PM on the 21st of November.

5:23 PM 12/2/2017
You may be able to help your body get rid of fluid more easily if you add 200 to 400 milligrams of magnesium to your daily diet. Foods high in this mineral include oatmeal, bananas, almonds, broccoli, and beets

10:42 AM 12/3/2017 Less swollen finally since the 26th of November

Up on the hour peeing, makes me think the Flagyl interfered with the spironolactone and that is why the Swollen Feet.

I was uncomfortable but I tried to keep them elevated most of the night.
This AM they look but do not feel less swollen.

Still very sensitive to any touch such as bedclothes rubbing them even ever so lightly.

If I take the Spiro I do not need the water pills that depleted me.

Flagyl

“Side Effects: Headache, nausea, blurred vision, drunk feeling, horrible taste in mouth, odd smells, swollen hands and feet , agitation, restlessness, crying, exhaustion.

Source:

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3138949/

Effects, reactions to medications

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I Am Thankful


I dance alone most days

I Talk too myself and even answer too

But I only answer too myself

I am responsible for all my actions and face any consequences head on without undo influence

I strive to be loving, kind and compassionate

I see the good in people

I see the deceit in some

I smile at strangers

Dance in grocery store isles

I get annoyed waiting in lines, rude persons, loud and drama prone individuals, robot phone calls, repeating myself,

Sometimes the mundane routines of existence tax my aura

I am Thankful I am mostly independent and DO NOT depend on others

I am thankful I can still be Thankful

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