In the News (Key West)

Rhea Suarez moved from Maryland in 1983 and found it a great place to raise her son and daughter,who excelled growing up here.Suarez feels blessed to work at Capt.Jim’s Citgo with an awesome staff.The water,sunsets,dolphins and party atmosphere are uniquely amazing. Suarez dreams about getting rid of all the cars and making the Island bicycles-only.She enjoys playing pool in her spare time.

Hey,if you got rid of all the cars you probably would not have a job at a gas station….Jus Saying!

Then again,no cars,no meters,no quarters.

Most importantly no alleged Meter Man

That’s my sweet girl 🙂

Jus Saying

A Good Companion is sometimes hard to find, where it used to be a hard man is good too find


This was a commissioned oil painting I had done in 2009. I was 60 at the time.

I woke early today and stared at my oil portrait. I started asking it questions. I know I’m weird sometimes.

Wanting answers to why I always chose men in my life that either loved me too much or not enough.

Men that could not keep their dicks in their pants for one reason or the other. They always felt the grass had to be greener on the other side.
Like the monkey on a limb, they would not let go until they had a firm hold on someone new.

Like the saying goes “One thing leads to another”

I have been there.

I am far from perfect.

I wanted a man in my life that could fulfill 3 things.

  • 1.  Intellect which also consisted of trust, honesty, compassion.
  • 2.  A need to be physically spent
  • 3.  If at all a feasible an option of being financially stable.

Most of these 3 options have eluded me throughout my life.

Then I really looked at the portrait staring so intently back at me.

I realized that the three options needed revisions.

  • 1. A Good Companion is sometimes hard to find, where it used to be a hard man is good too find
  • 2. Exercise~Taking care of myself physically and mentally
  • 3.  Making do with what I have too work with. (Not looking for someone to take care of me)

It’s not so much about getting ‘Laid” anymore.

It’s all about how laid back you are 🙂

Health~Wealth~Abundance and Time too Enjoy.

Most persons who know me would describe me as a very compulsive personality with a need to be always right.

At least a person who got the last word in whether it be right or wrong.

Most likely it could be said that throughout my life I did pretty much what I wanted.
At times I have been known to be very hard-headed, very stubborn and set in my way. I did not care about consequence of action.

According to this quote and my dad always saying it…
“A hard head makes a soft behind” ~goes years back from when children would be stubborn (or) hard-headed and disobey their parents in which case they got spankings (aka) a soft behind.”

This has gotten me in many holes in the sidewalk so too speak.

There’s a Hole in my Sidewalk
by Portia Nelson

I. I walk down the street
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk
I fall in
It isn’t my FAULT.
It takes forever to find my way out.
II. I walk down the street
There is a deep HOLE in the sidewalk
I pretend I don’t see it
I FALL in again…
I can’t believe I’m in the same place
But it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.
III.I walk down the same street
There is a deep HOLE in the sidewalk
I see it is there
I see it is there.
I still FALL in…it’s a HABIT…but my eyes are open
I KNOW where I am
It is my FAULT

IV. I walk down the same street
There is a deep HOLE in the sidewalk

After rereading I wrote this on 3/7/11

My path has been one of many highs and lows. Unforeseen pebbles and at times boulders strewn in front of me.

I fell in many holes in my side-walk of discovery.

I chose to get out, to avoid those holes.

I was involved with some for the wrong reasons~ Now I am not involved for the right reasons

There are no Holes in my sidewalk.

Fall into enough of the holes in the sidewalks of life and you may become whole.
Through the lessons of the holes of life, you approach wholeness.
Becoming whole means striving to be all that you can be. All potentialities are explored.
You know what you do, and why you do it.
Choices are made, and you are responsible for these choices.
The holes in the sidewalk are actually invitations to grow.

I have also been very determined to get out, to crawl if need be.

My home life in the early years was very inconsistent.
My parents never seemed to be in agreement on many things.
This resulted in my tendency to not make any decisions.

My mom was Jehovah’s Witness, my Dad was very much into the John Birch Society. My grandparents were Freemasons.

I started out with “The Flow” “Anyway the Wind blows”, this has stuck with me throughout life.
Never a plan so too speak.

I married and had my only child at 19 years of age. She is an adult now with her own issues concerning how her parents raised her.

This thing called “Life” is what happens. It happens to all of us, some sooner than others.

The journey, the realizations, the questions of immortality never seem to come to some. Others, it seems like a light has went off and it has lit up everything that was hidden away in the darkness.

Looking at my portrait, I see someone saying “Can you really see me ?”

Do you know that suffering of any person or animal brings tears to my eyes ?

Do you realize how much I care for the person who is down and seemingly out ?

Is it apparent too you how I do put myself in another’s shoes and walk there walk on many occasions ?

That’s the way it is.

My parents raised me the best they could with the light they had to see with.

Knowing when too Hold and when to Fold.

I also have to ask myself why I was so insecure in recent years ?

I have little respect if any when persons insist I be there cup of tea or else.

After all I have my own thoughts and feelings, I do not need anyone else’s.

Invalidation, is what I am talking about and some do not get it.


Invalidation is to reject, ignore, mock, tease, judge, or diminish someone’s feelings. It is an attempt to control how they feel and for how long they feel it.

I am thankful for the lessons learned.

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William Cooper, in his book “Behold a Pale Horse,” Light Technology Publishing, Flagstaff, Ariz., 1991, details U.S. government dealings with aliens dating back to, first the investigation of UFOs in Project SIGN in 1947, Project GRUDGE in 1948, and Project BLUEBOOK after that to investigate and discredit civilian sightings.

Cooper writes about the coming New World Order, and the Plan, which the “Power Elite” of this country and this world are implementing, that will bring about the Global Government, Economy, and Religion.

New Age author Cooper is dead set against this coming global government, and urgently shows how the Plan is proceeding NOW.

Cooper provides much first hand information based upon his career in U.S. Naval Intelligence, on the energetic leadership our Government is providing to implement this global system of Government, Economy, and Religion.

This is the most quoted book on the Illuminati in Cutting Edge


via Illuminati | NEW WORLD ORDER PLAN.

If you still resist to believe, listen to a former President of the United States, who mentioned a Secret Society in a public speech and was assassinated a couple of weeks later.

Thankful for Many Things

Today has been an interesting day one of many thoughts and happenings.

Today I was thankful that I had been raised both frugally and lavishly.It taught me many life lessons.I can turn a dime and I can pinch one.

The saying used to be a penny but you know inflation and all.

During my childhood we lived in a four room home with no running water and no indoor plumbing.It effected me.I was 12.

I wrote this poem and called it “Tin Roof”.I often wondered what could have possibly been hidden from myself,in the dark recesses of my mind that perhaps I didn’t want to recall.

“If these walls could talk what would they say
Would we hear the laughter, see the tears
Would we hear secrets
Spoken in whispers of days past
Would we see our daydreams and imaginations
Take flight into the night
Would our dreams come true like they did in the rooms
The rain is falling,
Teardrops on the tin roof
The tiger is trying to get through the window
When I wake there is blood on my arm
Was it the torn and broken window screen,
What was I fighting ?”

and also this poem.It came to me when I was thinking about my parents,religion and my rebellion.

“From a dream these thoughts arose and upon arising finding pens and paper I began this prose.
Life in almost every instance is chosen.
Not at the moment of birth but from each moment henceforth.
You have control of your world and surroundings.
Your Chosen Ways
In the first years, you in a sense control your parents.
They feed, dry, and clothe you when you cry.
Then in your teens they try to almost no avail to control you because after all it’s your life.
Your Chosen Ways
As you find your way into the world, you and your Chosen Ways find joy, happiness, pain, depression, and helplessness.
You swim at times, others have sought your Chosen Ways.
You sink at times under the influence of there Chosen Ways.
In the name of love, you destroy your lovingness with drugs and alcohol.
In the name of faith you lose your parents love for twelve years of your Chosen life.
Your Chosen Ways
You wander aimlessly, seemingly without purpose, chasing an elusive butterfly for years.
Live in shelters, on the street
Not missing a beat.
You submerge yourself in self destructive Chosen ways with the same Chosen people
You are a product of your parents, and there parents and on and on and there Chosen Ways
You want, you don’t want.
You laugh, then cry as if the milk spilled or your cup is well filled
Your Chosen Ways
One day after living this Chosen life for so many DAYS OF YOUR LIFE, you get hit as if from a thunderbolt.
You begin to smell the roses, the wetness on the rose petals from recent rain.
There is No Right way, nor is there a Wrong way.
You awaken with light in your eyes and joy in your heart.
It is after all,
Your Chosen Ways.”
written by Cyndi
October 2nd,1999

I can remember my mama making us rice and beans days in a row.Turn that around and add a stroke of abundance.
My father was a hustler.
That entailed a hard day’s work or perhaps a win at the local pool hall…My dad would say bring on the steaks.

I don’t remember ever going to bed hungry.I always was warm in the winter with two stoves to warm us.One was an electric gas stove,the other a kitchen wood burning stove.

I took nothing for granted because I knew of nothing better.

The outdoors no matter what the weather was my refuge.

Trees made to climb with nature designed limbs to get you to the top.

Creeks to wade in during the hot summers and skate on in the frozen winters.

Perfect sled runs down hills and hills of freshly fallen snow packed by my Uncle’s snow plow and a drizzle of frozen rain.

Igloo’s of snow built into the side banks next to Grandma’s house.

Croquet in the yard in the summer time with plenty of sweet Maryland iced tea to satisfy a thirst.

The smells of apple butter and apple cider being made at Butchering time.I can still see the huge vats of pig fat being made into cooking lard.The smoke wafting into the hot putrid air from the remnants of the slaughter.Preparing the humongous slabs of sugar-cured bacon and other parts too be cured in the smoke house.

Perhaps my dreams will take me back tonight.

I want Candy

I don’t know what happened.I am craving sweets.Today at the grocery I passed these by…

Then I did a search on candies that have the least impact on weight loss regimes.

Candies that won’t blow your diet.Then again,my problem is I can’t seem to eat just one,like chips~once I open the bag it’s over.

Thanks to Joy Bauer for these tips:

By Joy Bauer contributor

Chocolate, our favorite guilty pleasure, is no longer as guilty! Research shows that even small amounts of dark chocolate rich in cocoa flavonoids can help lower blood pressure, improve blood flow, and even lower LDL (“bad”) cholesterol. The trick is to choose varieties made with at least 70 percent cocoa or cacao and moderate your portions to about 150 calories or one ounce per day. Unfortunately, milk chocolate doesn’t offer the same health benefits, so I highly encourage you to make the switch to dark if you haven’t already.

Lindt Excellence 70 percent Cocoa Bar: Though Lindt also offers their “70 percent Cocoa” bar in a 3.5-ounce size, I prefer the small 1.2-ounce package. That way, you can guiltlessly enjoy the whole 170-calorie bar in one sitting… and don’t need to rely on your willpower to break off only a few squares of the larger bar.

Scharffen Berger 70 percent Cacao Bittersweet Chocolate Bars: Like Lindt, Scharffen Berger offers a personal-sized (1 ounce) bar so you can get your chocolate fix without overindulging. If you’re looking for an even smaller bite, try their 70 percent dark chocolate “Tasting Squares”, which are slightly larger than a postage stamp and have less than 25 calories per piece.

Newman’s Own Organics Super Dark 70 percent Cocoa Chocolate Bar: Another delicious pure dark chocolate bar! Look for the 2.25-ounce size and enjoy half the bar (3 squares) for a modest 165 calories.

Trader Joe’s “70 percent Belgian Cacao” Dark Chocolate Wedges: This 3.5-ounce wheel of chocolate is cut into 16 small wedges, perfectly portioned at just 35 calories per piece. The chocolates are packaged in a cute round metal tin, so you can pop out a wedge and conveniently store the rest for later.
If you’re not in the mood for plain dark chocolate, here are some fun twists on the standard bar.

Q.bel: Q.bel’s Double Dark Wafer Bars (made with 70 percent dark Belgian chocolate) are a delicious cross between a cookie and a candy bar and a package of two bars has 180 calories. Their wafer rolls are another fun treat for chocoholics of all ages. For just 120 calories, you get two crispy wafer cookies completely enrobed in 52 percent dark chocolate. These wafer rolls don’t quite meet my “70 percent cocoa” standard, but they’re a delightful splurge every once and awhile.

Sweetriot: Sweetriot chocolate-covered cacao nibs have quickly become a favorite of celebs… along with the rest of us! Their nibs — or “peaces”, as Sweetriot calls them — deliver dark, rich cocoa flavor and a double dose of antioxidants: one from the cacao nib (a tiny piece of roasted cacao bean at the center of each “peace”) and another from the dark chocolate that coats the outside. Sweetriot’s nibs come in three flavors: 50 percent, 65 percent, and 70 percent chocolate — and set you back only 140 calories for an entire tin. If you’re not ready for the intense flavor of straight nibs, try their 70 percent dark chocolate yumBar for 180 calories. This vegan chocolate bar is speckled with plump raisins and crunchy cacao nibs and loaded with antioxidants.

Endangered Species Chocolates: Endangered Species makes a wide variety of 100% ethically traded, exotic-flavored chocolate bars, but I particularly love their bite-sized selections because they do the portion controlling for you. Their “Dark Chocolate with Cranberries & Almonds” individually-wrapped chocolate squares have 50 calories and are made with delicious 72 percent dark chocolate. Kids will love their 70 percent dark chocolate “Bug Bites” (also 50 calories), which come packaged with fun insect trading cards.

Nestle Dark Chocolate Raisinets and Cherry Raisinets: Though the package doesn’t state the percent cocoa and I’m guessing they don’t meet my 70 percent cutoff, these two new Raisinet varieties are a darker, healthier spin on the milk chocolate originals. Plus, their fruity raisin and cherry centers give you a little dose of vitamins, minerals, and antioxidants, which certainly can’t hurt. You can enjoy 1/4 cup of Raisinets for 200 calories or less.

Dark Chocolate Covered Nuts: Though the standard dark chocolate nuts you’ll find at stores probably aren’t coated with 70 percent dark chocolate, they still have their own nutritional perks to offer. Whether you choose almonds, cashews, peanuts, or pecans, you’re getting a blast of protein, fiber, and healthy fats from the nuts, along with that delicious hit of chocolately goodness. Because a single portion (10 to 15 pieces) is typically over 200 calories, you’ll definitely want to limit yourself to a small handful and savor them slowly.

York Peppermint Patties: Who doesn’t love the classic combo of chocolate and mint? Even though the coating probably isn’t 70 percent dark chocolate, York Peppermint Patties are still a safe way to satisfy a sweet tooth without going whole hog. For 150 calories or less, you can enjoy one regular-size pattie or three of the miniatures.

Dylan’s Candy Bar Chocolate Covered Sunflower Seeds: These rainbow-colored candies are coated with milk chocolate, not dark, but they still have an edge on most candies because you get a shot of nutrition from the sunflower kernels buried underneath. Sunflower seeds add some protein, fiber, and minerals like magnesium to this treat — not bad, considering it’s candy! A 2-tablespoon portion clocks in at 130 calories.

Hard candies
Hard candies are a smart choice because they automatically pace you. They take a while to finish (as long as you suck or lick, not chomp!), so you get to savor the sweetness for a bit and stretch your sugar calories. As long as you limit yourself to a few pieces, you can’t do that much damage. Here are a few of my favorites in the hard candy category:

Atomic FireBalls: Unlike some addictive sugary candies that you can swallow by the handful, Atomic Fireballs are a great “one and done” candy option. They’re hard as a rock, so you can’t bite through them (don’t try, you’ll break a tooth!) … and after you finish one flaming sucker, you’ll be ready to give your mouth a rest. One large, individual wrapped fireball has only 35 calories.

Lifesavers and Jolly Ranchers: If you gravitate towards fruity flavors, suck on a Lifesaver (15 calories) or a hard Jolly Rancher (23 calories). My advice is to stash just a few in your purse or desk drawer rather than a full bag, so you don’t get carried away. Both candies are readily available in a wide variety of fun flavors.

Chewy candies
Most chewy candies are pure sugar, so there isn’t really a nutritional advantage to choosing one variety over the next. But if you’re looking for a diet-friendly treat that won’t throw you off track, I suggest choosing portion-controlled candy packs or candies that come in bite-sized pieces, so you can have a fair number of nibbles without flooding your system with sugar and calories.

Jelly Belly Jellybeans: Jelly Belly jellybeans come in dozens of fun flavors and they’re tiny, so each little bean has just 4 calories (25 beans for 100 calories). I love their new “Cocktail Classics” collection, which features three brand new flavors — mojito, pomegranate cosmo, and peach bellini — along with three old favorites — margarita, pina colada, and strawberry daiquiri. How else can you enjoy a pomegranate cosmo for less than 5 calories?!
Smarties: These retro candies have just 25 calories for an entire roll — now that’s a calorie bargain!
Panda Licorice Bars: Panda licorice has a simple, clean ingredients list, a soft, chewy texture, and, unlike a lot of licorice-flavoredproducts, actually contains real licorice extract. Panda makes pre-portioned 100-calorie bars in three flavors: original black licorice, raspberry, and cherry. Some studies show that natural licorice can help relieve pain from stomach ulcers and relieve indigestion, but it can also raise blood pressure, so you’ll want to avoid eating large amounts of this candy if you have hypertension.

Crystallized Ginger: Crystallized or candied ginger is made by cooking slices of fresh ginger root in sugar syrup and then drying the slices to create a chewy texture. These candies have a pungent bite, which may encourage you to nibble slowly and keep you from going overboard. Added bonus: ginger is a potent anti-inflammatory and a natural remedy for nausea.

Florida’s Natural Au’some Treats: Though I still consider them a sweet treat, Florida’s Natural Au’some Nuggets and Sour Strings are made with over 60 percent real fruit and fruit juices. Plus, they come in pre-portioned, 50-calorie pouches to help you keep a lid on snacking. These fruit chews are a terrific step up from sugary gummy bears and traditional fruit snacks.