Meandering I Suppose


7:47 PM 1/23/2017

I found my White Horse

You are most fortunate to have the horse spirit within you, for she has many things to teach you and many blessings to share.

The horse will show you how to balance your caring nature and deep love for others with your equally deep need for freedom and independence.

There will be days when she shows you how to relax fully, first rubbing against your loved ones, then just standing in the shade of the tree and munching the apples as they fall. Abundance will be yours, as she teaches you that a peaceful and centered life provides what is needed, like apples falling from a tree on a perfect summer’s day.

And when you ask, she will take you for a ride, as you run like the wind, faster and faster, until finally, like Pegasus, she sprouts wings, soars into the air and allows your soul to fly free. She will lift you to the heavens and reveal to you there your own highest self.

And through it all, she will show you how to stay deeply centered in the moment. She will teach you to live without worry or regret, your heart free of blame. Breathe in her spirit and she will bring you fully into this moment and all that it contains, where you can balance beauty and duty, freedom and togetherness, all in perfect joy and harmony.

10:50 AM 1/25/2017
The spider web weaves what no fly should touch…just saying

by Cynthia

12:39 PM 1/25/2017

First Stage of Scorpio: The Scorpion Scorpio – A “stage one” Scorpio exercises power through emotion and instinct. This Scorpio is symbolized by the scorpion, an insect more likely, in the end, to sting itself rather than others. Aggression and instinct are particular features of the Scorpion aspect, which is where the tendency to potential destructive behavior and competitiveness resides.

Second Stage of Scorpio: The Eagle Scorpio : A “stage two” Scorpio is symbolized by the Golden Eagle and exercises power through the intellect. Golden Eagle Scorpios show signs of maturity above Scorpion Scorpios in that they possess the ability to see what others miss, discern hidden motives, and discover deeper truths beneath the surface of life. This can prove to be either beneficial or exploitative, and can be used deceptively if not guarded. While Eagle Scorpios can indeed use these skills to help invent new medicines, save a patient’s life, successfully psychoanalyze the problems of others and help them find purpose, other  Eagle Scorpios are nonetheless not above exploiting others to suit their own purposes or interests, because Scorpios are also known for valuing power and wealth.

Third Stage of Scorpio: The Phoenix Scorpio: A “stage three” Scorpio is symbolized by the Dove of Peace and the Phoenix, which exercises power through love,  healing and transformation. The Phoenix represents a Scorpio who has been transformed, and has reached deep within him/herself to embrace the more subtle, mystical qualities of the soul, rather than ones ego, and in result soar to spiritual heights like a bird on the wing. The tendency to be judgmental and power-obsessed is gone, and rather the observational talents of Scorpio are fused with compassion rather than judgment, defeating a life of extremes and polarities and finding greater purpose  through self-spiritual development.

12:31 PM 1/31/2017
THE ROAD OF LIFE TWISTS AND TURNS AND NO TWO DIRECTIONS ARE EVER THE SAME. YET OUR LESSONS COME FROM THE JOURNEY, NOT THE DESTINATION.

Camping Trip
Four guys have been going to the same deer camp for many years.Two days before the group is to leave, Ron’s wife puts her foot down and tells him he isn’t going.

Ron’s friends are very upset that he can’t go, but what can they do.
Two days later the three get to the camping site only to find Ron sitting there with a tent set up, firewood gathered, and dinner cooking on the fire.

“Dang man, how long you been here, and how did you talk your wife into letting you go?”

“Well, I’ve been here since yesterday. Yesterday evening, I was sitting in my chair and my wife came up behind me and put her hands over my eyes and said, ‘Guess who?
I pulled her hands off, and she was wearing a brand new nightie.
She took my hand and pulled me to our bedroom. The room had candles and rose petals all over.
On the bed she had handcuffs, and ropes! She told me to tie and cuff her to the bed, and I did.
And then she said, “Do whatever you want.”

So, Here I am.

2:25 PM 1/31/2017
While you are on YouTube.com just add “ss” to the video URL in order to start the default YouTube downloader.

7:44 PM 2/2/2017
From Doreen Virtue
BEHIND EVERY HIGHLY DRAMATIC PERSON LURKS AN UNRESOLVED TRAUMA. DRAMA IS HIS OR HER WAY OF ASKING
FOR LOVE, AND BEGGING FOR HELP AND UNDERSTANDING

DRAMA QUOTIENT QUIZ
Answer “Yes” or “No” to each question:
1. I can’t stand to be alone.
2. I would rather be with someone difficult than be
alone.
3. I am usually attracted to people who have
problems
4. I’ve had more than one abusive romantic partner.
5. My childhood was painful.
6. I feel guilty much of the time.
7. I love reading magazines and online articles
about celebrities.
8. In conversations, I seem to be the person who
knows the most about the personal lives of
celebrities.
9. I enjoy watching reality television shows.
10. My life seems to be “one thing after another.”

3:37 PM 2/5/2017
“Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

Break up the bud. Insert the problems. Roll up the resentments. Light up the solutions. Inhale the happiness & exhale the past.

7:03 PM 2/6/2017

Garments

Upon a day Beauty and Ugliness met on the shore of a sea. And they said to one another, “Let us bathe in the sea.”

Then they disrobed and swam in the waters. And after a while Ugliness came back to shore and garmented himself with the garments of Beauty and walked away.

And Beauty too came out of the sea, and found not her raiment, and she was too shy to be naked, therefore she dressed herself with the raiment of Ugliness. And Beauty walked her way.

And to this very day men and women mistake the one for the other.

Yet some there are who have beheld the face of Beauty, and they know her notwithstanding her garments. And some there be who know the face of Ugliness, and the cloth conceals him not from their eyes.

by kahil-gibran

Moving Mind~ a ZEN Story

Two men were arguing about a flag flapping in the wind.

“It’s the wind that is really moving,” stated the first one. “No, it is the flag that is moving,” contended the second.

A Zen master, who happened to be walking by, overheard the debate and interrupted them. “Neither the flag nor the wind is moving,” he said, “It is MIND that moves.”

10:01 PM 2/6/2017
They told me with the veil and jojoba, I could pass and I did for a while. Going into the cafe dressed as a Berber was not a good idea.
Holding the Quran in your hand is not a very good idea
either. They are very serious about the Muslim religion.
They whispered about my American dress when I first came, but after a few months, I was like a local.

I made some bad choices, and had a few close calls.

11:06 AM 2/10/2017

I am not a one in a million kind of girl but I AM a once in a lifetime kind of woman.

You may be in my past, I assume you are in my present, you just might be in my future but I am not here….Leave a message.

2017 Atlantic hurricane season will start on
Thursday, June 1 and will end on Thursday, November 30
1:08 PM 2/12/2017

Something I just thought of. I slept in this Sunday. I am always up before light with the animals, but today I decided to sleep on. I looked out the window at such a beautiful day. I thought of Sunday’s with Rhea at Snipes Point watching dolphins frolic from the boat.
I sort of asked the universe to share someone with me that was older, had a boat, wasn’t interested in games and would be a companion. Ha~ don’t ask for much huh?

If you should come to know me

Body and Soul

My Secrets

My Shadows

My Mind

The perception you have created

Of me in your mind

Like a caterpillar’s metamorphosis

Nothing would remain the same

Between us

Better to be mysterious

Ask me no questions

Endure no lies

Let me bathe in the attentiveness

This moment

In the Maze of Time

Cynthia J.Martz Feb 12 2012

10:27 AM 2/16/2017
I’m a Gemini Moonbaby, I try to hide the Scorpio part as long as possible.

I am also an airy Rising Aquarius

11:52 AM 2/22/2017

The connection between Pisces man and Scorpio woman is one of a deep enrichment that is actually indescribable. They connect on so many levels and just seem to flow together so nicely. Scorpio woman shows him the ways of honesty and the confidence in knowing they are able to weather any storm and Pisces man can show her that it is not so bad to forgive and forget. Together they are very happy and close couple.

7:38 PM 2/22/2017

My new Favorite Song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LxwM7sWr_Ms
Moby – JLTF Lyrics

We heard the rain on the window
Like a sinful waste of time
We heard the sirens’ wailing
Like the world had lost its smile
We spend our days together
Hiding far from everything
Oh we knew it was over
When the summer turned to spring

All the words we said
All the time we spent
Does it mean nothing
Does it mean nothing

12:24 AM 3/3/2017
Cynthia says~
When you feel like you are drowning just float

12:28 PM 3/9/2017
I SEE

Been to London

Been to France

Traveled by Train through Spain

Passing Sunflowers in the Rain

Transfixed by island of Es Vedra Sirens of the Sea
IBIZA

Rode camels in the desert

Sit in ruins of mammoth caves
of myths and Hercules Legions engraved
at times secluded by the tide

Walked the maze of streets
Following white feathers

Medina’s filled with spice and trinkets

Smelled the Moroccan Rose with Jasmine entwined

Views of Gibraltar from the vine filled terrace
Snow capped Rif and Atlas Mountains

Sipping mint tea from Baba’s Cafe
Smoking Kif and hashish

My ever watchful mother’s eye on a two-year old
with wanderlust

Moments on Polaroid confiscated
Of this special place and time

by Cynthia

3:55 PM 3/27/2017
I was grinning tear to tear

5:31 PM 4/25/2017
Cynthia says~ Some can not hear because they just do not listen. Others wish they could hear so they could just Listen. Think about it.

4:11 PM 5/2/2017
Who needs a man when you got a Bob. Bob? Yeah, battery-operated boyfriend..

9:38 PM 5/4/2017
I had a misbehaving breakfast this morning. I had eggs beenadick.

10:15 PM 5/4/2017
Hidesight 2013
China, Minnie and Shy say they hope evfurrybody enjoys the enchantment of the season.May it continue to sprinkle Happy Fairy Hairball Dust all around you throughout the coming New Year.

10:29 PM 5/4/2017
If I could think of just one something I would like to have right at this moment it would be a like-minded companion. Someone that has grown through their relationships and at the same time learned from them. This is most important. If you haven’t learned the lesson the lesson will keep coming over and over until at some point you say aha. I got it. By George I think I got it. I wish I understood what in the heck I am doing.

My feelings flip faster than pancakes.

2:02 AM 5/7/2017
Don’t go back we’ll be right away

4:59 PM 5/7/2017
The Flying Fickle Finger of Fate Award
The States Congress established 1781 for ignoring 2oo million citizens and gun laws.

The share button comes and goes at Facebook’s will.

6:11 PM 5/7/2017

“Poema  X ” of Pablo Neruda

“Love is so short and forgetting is so long.”

Under The Harvest Moon” of Carl Sandburg
Lurks in the dusk
Of the wild red leaves,
Love, with little hands,
Comes and touches you
With a thousand memories
And asks you
Beautiful, unanswerable questions.

6:12 PM 5/7/2017
Nikola Tesla was raised an Orthodox Christian. Later in life he did not consider himself to be a “believer in the orthodox sense,” said he opposed religious fanaticism, and noted “Buddhism and Christianity are the greatest religions both in number of disciples and in importance”.[260] He also said “To me, the universe is simply a great machine which never came into being and never will end” and “what we call ‘soul’ or ‘spirit,’ is nothing more than the sum of the functioning’s of the body. When this functioning ceases, the ‘soul’ or the ‘spirit’ ceases likewise”

 

Until tomorrow folks when my oh so cluttered mind continues…

Bustelo Coffee Holder Zuma Yamaha

searching for a coffee beverage holder for my 2009 Zuma Yamaha


After repeated attempts at purchasing a delicious coffee.  Even before arriving at destination, it has spilled entirely out even with a lid.

The recipe:

café con leche

After searching for a coffee beverage holder for my 2009 Zuma Yamaha and coming up with no results ;

I designed this.

Bustelo_Coffee_Holder_Yamaha

Directions

Always have Bustelo on hand

Find hammer which has not been used since trying to open a coconut years ago

Find a phillips screwdriver

Attempt to hold can while hammering a hole with said screwdriver

If successful, take a quick tie and secure it to the outside of basket.

 

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Bustelo_Holder

Now, you can have coffee at the beach and it will hopefully be a full cup.

 

I wonder why Yamaha put in a slanted holder in front. It does not hold anything drinkable.

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On the radio with DJ freshvintage


2Cynthia_Sig_Aqua copy~says

How did we get on this subject ? Vintage is the one thing I would desire too spend money on.

Remember what is new too you today will be worth some bucks in a Vintage Way years from now.

At any rate. The subject came up because a person posted a photo of his self with his appendage draped across a towel. He advertised it as a towel Holder for females only.

Seriously, I do not recall how we jumped on these two conversations.

I really thought it was a towel holder and wondered why he hadn’t given it to my daughter instead of selling it ?

booshit

In the meantime I hung Halloween witches, ghosts, pumpkins, and skeletons. Three of the plastic cats have already fallen.

Put catnip on the fake dog and mouse that is the size of Hempy and China was in fear for her life.

Guess she favors a real cat attack.

Source: On the radio with DJ freshvintage

2Cynthia_Sig_Aqua copy~says…I love the fangs

Blog Time Out

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I received a message in a dream last night. I was in the shallow Mangroves at Snipes Point. It was a beautiful day. The skies were blue and the bellowing clouds seemed to speak too me. I kept hearing the words~Time and Out.

So, I am heeding the advice.

Be Back Soonish I am sure Smile

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  • UPDATE

This is an PNG file and works great in emails on white background. It is floating. Here, not so. It has a WHITE Background and BOX around it. I do not like the BOX. My WordPress THEME (iTHEME2 THEME) used to have the option in customize to make it Light or Dark. White on black, or black on white. Now it is just the dark. I never cared for the light but it would make the transparencies pop more. It’s my favorite theme since I made it my own. So, I do not want to change it.

I am really hating these border crossings

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Unknown Web Photo (Music in my Mind)

I’m trying new learning curves and the best way to do it.

Lots of Trials and Errors.

Oh and I know about the code to take out the box.

Photo from where you uploaded it too. Copy the html and insert.

At the bottom

Like this:

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 See, it looks see through when I write the post than after posting has the box around it and dark background. I am too confused. My brain is dead.

I feel like my hamster on his wheel running in circles. It’s a gif file so he runs the wheel.

Hamster

 

Feeling The Spirit Within


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I am the Peaceful Warrior

My new motto is ““Yes! Thank you!”

We walked to the Baptist Church about a block away. It was a good sermon. “Troubled in a Troubling World”

Strange, but each time I enter a church I get so teary and emotional. Three people told me it is the spirit working in me.

We are going back at 6. The sermon this evening is “What do you believe and Why” That should be interesting. The thing I really enjoy is the love you feel from everyone.

I told his niece that the Baptist belief of ONE GOD being Christ and Spirit would take some serious getting used too. The way I remember God was Jehovah and Christ was his only-begotten son.The Holy spirit is God’s power or “active force” rather than a person.

She said a good way to understand it is like an egg. It has a shell, a yolk, whites (albumen)

Three parts, but it makes the egg.)

Of course had to do some research…

How does the egg analogy explain the Trinity?

For Comments

“I often hear Christians cite the egg analogy to explain the Trinity.
I get that the shell, white, and yoke are all parts of ONE egg, but they are all SEPARATE parts of one egg.
I thought each person in the Trinity was supposed to be fully God. How does that fit with the egg analogy?
Not trying to attack or anything, but this never really made sense to me.”

Against Comments

“The trinity is pagan in its origins and has nothing to do with truth in the least …. Am i the same being as my father who created me or am i my own separate being … Am i my Father at the same time i am me …… How sick mankind has become ….. Jesus never said he was his Father in heaven …. If you were God himself would you let yourself be born here , die then raise yourself from the dead even though you are dead …. Their logic is explainable only to themselves for in the understanding of it lies madness itself ….. Satan could never have hoped for a better outcome to his nonsense in the Garden of Eden….. The final outcome comes soon enough and we shall see what The father himself thinks of fools who have made his son God over him….. Remember Lots wife , the look on their faces will be the same when truth sets in and can no longer be ignored.”

My mama was on a mission search.We studied Baptists, Lutheran, Methodist at some point before Jehovah’s Wit-Lesses ???

We even went to a Holy Roller gathering, that was exciting,

Maybe that is why I feel awkward and so emotional it brings tears streaming down my face in any place of worship.

I told the Pastor God dwelled inside me and that was good enough for me.

Then again I know so little I thought The Trinity applied only to The Catholic Church.

I never paid too much attention to the basics I suppose.

Just was not interested.

When I realized I wasn’t going to burn forever in Hell, I lost interest in the do good and all that.

Life’s Highway and Byways


bike_ridingbyArt Anderson

Country photography by Art Anderson

She was off work for the afternoon, we talked. I had given her a book too read on the Nephilim. She started in on how her grandma had force-fed her the way of the truth.

I asked about the adoption and if she knew about it.

She said she had lived with mom and dad for over a year and went to school from their house. I mentioned that too a young mind it may have seemed like a year, but it wasn’t.

When I left to move further North she was with me.

She started 1 st  grade. She proved to be a handful and I was working two jobs. It seemed she was always at one or the other of babysitters.

My younger sibling left to go to West.

My roomie moved back too her family’s home.

I in turn moved to the city again.

I had taken my daughter to the farm her dad worked on.

A new love interest had recently moved in with him.

She was on some form of probation and they thought the living circumstance would help her.

I then met a LOVE BOMBER (75) and my life began to swirl out of control with abuse and disillusionment.

I decided it best to let her stay at her dad’s.

His new love did not want to be a step-Mom. They eventually married. She had a baby. She did indeed raise my child for 6 years until she left  and went back to her first husband.

He chased her and her daughter out-of-town with a shotgun when he caught her in his bed with his best friend.

In the mean time…

this is when my child stayed with Mom and Dad. Then back too her dad and finally his mother on Canberra Court.

He ran off to Key West to avoid some legal matters he had, by all intent and purposes was declared dead.

I hopped a bus and moved cross-country. During this time she came to live with me out West in Salt Lake and California.

She had a diary. I was looking through it one day and noticed entries about her dad and realized he was very much alive. She had planned on going there too live with him.

This is when I decided to try to catch her in-between her moves.

I drove to Michigan from California.

Within a few days I had changed the bald tires and was heading for Maryland.

When I arrived I was informed my girl was gone.

Her grandmother (Dad’s Mother ) was vague about her whereabouts, but I knew.

She had lived with me in Michigan for almost 2 years.

At first she was in regular school and then after her return I found an alternative school in St.Joseph (mostly uppity white girls) that she managed to get kicked out of.

Before that she abruptly took her SELF out of school around Thanksgiving and got a bus back too Key West.

I had expected her back within two weeks and remember calling. I located her by phone at a local arcade.

My phone bill was astronomical. She had run it up prior to leaving and then my trying too locate her added to the expense.

I paid for her to come back on the train after a few months.

This is when she came back with quite the stash.

Mind you she was supposedly being threaten by drug lords in Key West.

Two years of total chaos, me working three jobs and her left to her vices.

I had given her the entire front room and I took the small bedroom.

She had Parties in the house, drank all my hidden liquor, smoked up all my cigarettes. Had her friends eating out of my cupboards.

I remember it had snowed so much and the car and everything else was buried.

She wanted to go to this quaint little place  in St.Joseph that had trains and other Xmas festive things all around.

I told her we were snowed in.

She said I will shovel out.

Not thinking that she could I agreed.

Next thing I know she has about five guys all with shovels in hand and I had to concede that possibly we would get be getting out and about.

No one was on the roads and we had so much fun.

We went to the mall and did circle 8’s in the snow. We came home and ended up walking to High’s for dinner.

It was beautiful with the snow falling and I felt so close too my daughter.

I met someone, another LOVE BOMBER (85)

She said she was moving back to Key West too become an escort.

I guess I had LOST the rights to be in control and everything was spiraling.

She stayed with her friend and her father, because her dad and his new friend were too strict on her.

She met her future husband and the rest as they say is history.

End