Meanderings~ Take 9


When lighting a burner or oven with no pilot light, always light the match first, place it at the burner, and then turn the range knob. I did the opposite. I had a drastic buzz cut in 1980. My gas stove SINGED my beautiful long hair and my eyebrows. I went to the barber and he buzzed it. I went cross-country on a greyhound bus. My mama gave me a wig for the trip. I woke from a nap and persons were walking on it (The Wig) in the isle. Everyone in Salt Lake was like “I love your hair, who did it?” I told them the stove scenario. I said to get the curly effect perm first, than singe, than BUZZ. This photo is approximately a three-month growth.

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The next time someone wants to fit you into a mold, just tell ’em that your jeans are in the wash, your angels are at the mall, and Oprah’s on the other line.
Fuzzy as dice,
The Universe

My cat is an angel from heaven above, with sandpaper kisses and a heart full of love

“Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one’s head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no to-morrow. To forget time, to forget life, to be at peace.” ~Oscar Wilde

 

Me in a Nutshell

• Passionate, intense emotion  • Magnetic attractiveness  • All or Nothing  • Sexually oriented, jealous  • Investigative, researcher  • Asks probing questions  • Mysterious, secretive  • Suspicious, skeptical  • Sarcastic, judgmental  • Emotional ownership  •  Psychic insights  • Self- Mastery

“When life makes you have to put up with mean and hateful people, think of them as sandpaper. They may scratch you, rub you the wrong way, but eventually you end up smooth and polished; and the sandpaper – it’s just gonna be worn out and ugly.”

6:08 PM 7/1/2017
Your name would be:
Aiyana, ‘Eternal Blossom’
You are beautiful and classic in every stage of life. You breathe new life into dull or tired situations. You make people happy just by being yourself. Somehow your beauty and energy never fade away.

OR:


“pale sumbitch with firestick and bad attitude.”

Pool, missing keys, Rhea said mine were in the kitchen on the wall. They were in the living room on the eagle three D photo. I am discombobulated for sure.

I bought a small bic lighter that was yellow for the sun. Today it looks white?  What up with that???

His keys fell out of my bathing suit and I have not a clue how in the hell they got their?

It’s not the day you have to manage, Phoenix, but the moment.
It’s not the dragon you have to slay, but the fear.
And it’s not the path you have to know, but the destination.
What a relief, huh?
The Universe

Cynthia says “This is coming from a place I lived within myself for too many years. Codependency isn’t fun at all in my opinion.”
The process of learning and becoming independent is a critical accomplishment, for if we fail to achieve happiness within our own space, independent of other’s influences, we pay for it the rest of our lives.

You can’t compare apples and oranges. If you didn’t live IT, don’t comment on it.

John Belushi’s Hey Bartender

“I said Woman, you going to walk a mile for a Camel
Or are you going to make like Mr. Chesterfield and satisfy?
She said that all depends on what you’re packing
Regular or king-size
Then she pulled out my Jim Beam, and to her surprise
It was every bit as hard as my Canadian Club”

Watched the DC Firework Spectacular on PBS.

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Are dreams our sub conscious thoughts of our waking conscious ones? Is that why if we do not jot notes on awaking, the dream is lost to our sub conscious within moments?

http://themindunleashed.com/2014/03/conscious-subconscious-unconscious-mind-work.html

Layers, Masks, locusts.

“Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot,
Nothing is going to get better. It’s not.”

Dr. Seuss, The Lorax

“Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you’re a good person and a good friend. What’s meant to be will end up good and what’s not- won’t. Love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you can’t be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don’t, you just have to move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you.”

I got up on the wrong side of the bed this morning, so tonight I will get in on the other side.

https://www.fibrodaze.com/chronic-hepatitis-c-fibromyalgia/

I would deal better with ALL the drama in her life if ANY of it was actually hers!!!

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For a hacking attempt to work, some sort of file transfer or exchange of information must take place or the victim must take some sort of action such as installing malware.

http://www.hoax-slayer.net/jayden-k-smith-hacker-warning-is-a-hoax/

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I just want you to know, Phoenix, that those animals you’ve known, who’ve moved beyond the veils of time and space, were forever changed by your love, they’re alive and well, and they’ve banded together to ask me a favor… that I make sure you get this message.
Bark, meow, chirp, ergle –
The Universe

Thinking and Remembering Caylee

Hindsight

 

June 11, 2011 at 4:36pm ·
Message from Caylee in Heaven~Little Angel

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Dear Mommy,
It’s me Caylee, writing you from my new home in Heaven.
I like it here but I liked it at Mama CC and Papi JoJo’s better. I miss my toys and my playhouse.

It was so dark and cold where you put me.
A cold, watery swamp. Those black bags and Grandma CC’s laundry bag. At least Pooh was with me.
Where was my favorite dolly ?

They said you left it in the car seat when you abandoned the car. Sorry I stank it up. But I was dead you know. Remember you killed me.

Those three pieces of tape across my nose and mouth, I couldn’t breathe. It was a horrible way to die Mommy.

You should have just broken my neck, quickly.
That would have been better.

But then again, no one knows how I suffered.
Or how I died. There were only bones left when they found my remains. No DNA, no flesh, the animals had eaten it all off.

Those 12 jurors, they found you not guilty. But mama, millions know that’s not the way it is supposed to be. You did it, you know it. So many in their gut, in their heart know it.

You will never be really free. I am sorry for you. I am sorry I made your life so unhappy that you had to rid yourself of me. I am sorry your life is all about lies and more lies.

I am sad that 12 jurors believed your lies.

The prosecution said it all when they said “You do not make an accident look like murder.
In all reality you try your best to make a murder look like an accident”

I rest my case.

“I’m going swimming now…oh and that drowning story and those lies about grandpa. How could you mama?

Notice I am talking really good now mama ?

© Cynthia J Martz

2:18 PM 7/12/2017
Another windows 10 Update. I noticed I am getting updates for Microsoft Office. I do not nor have ever had Office. Uninstalled years ago.

I upgraded this Windows 7 Ultimate to Windows 10 Pro when I had too. I just uninstalled the updates to Office but I have an odd feeling they will be like Groundhog Day every time there’s another update.

I made a system restore since I have moved so much around of late.

Our memories are within us, not within our things.

My REVIEW

Canon PIXMA MX922 Wireless All-in-One Photo Printer, Copier, Scanner and Fax with Software and Photo Paper Bundles

I have always owned Canon printers, camera’s if it said Canon I knew it would be great.

This printer is the best. Everything works as it should. Copier is fast, scanner is accurate, photos 4×6 or larger are perfect.

It lacks proper documentation and for those unfamiliar with setting up a printer may find issues.

Other than that easy set up with ink and paper.

YouTube has many set up videos for this problem. I did not realize it had two bottom cassette drawers and it took me a while to figure out how to load the legal paper.

Love the eco mode for printing on both sides in document copier.

Love the fact the drawer opens automatically when printing.

Until the Next Meanderings Strike

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SunPar 3-D Dream

Universal Message:
Your mind is apt to be challenged, dear Scorpio, by a strong force that is calling on you to lift off the ground and take flight. More than likely there is a strong person or situation that enters the scene today to remind you of the importance of the imagination. Don’t get so fixed in your position that you fail to see the benefits of other ways of looking at the same thing.


Flashback

8/20/2002

Jupiter 3-D


This is a powerful message that came to me in a dream.

My fingers may make typo’s but I want to get down as much as I can remember and the sequence in which it came.

I went to sleep at 4 am with Purrby by my side. Inside my dream I was awakened to a room full of persons that I had no knowledge of ever seeing or meeting. The window was wide open and the curtain was the only pertinent thing in the room. It was here (my apartment) but it had been totally transformed. There was a void to the room as in pictures and material things, very plain.

The persons were beautiful in form and small kittens were scattering about. They were not in good health from being outdoors and were cuddling with Purrby.

On a whiteboard the words,welcome to Sunpar’s Journey to Jupiter in 3-D was written. The crop music from the “SIGNS” soundtrack  was playing. I was being touched and caressed simultaneously by many hands. The touch filled me with intimidation and I was told to relax and enjoy these things bestowed upon me.

One man in particular was a leader of sorts. In my mind I assumed that he at some time had been with these other woman. I remember hovering over the group in suspended animation and being moved in different directions by persons moving there hands.

My first mate was here and at first seemed to be upset that so much attention was centered on me until a lady chose him and they disappeared into a long kiss, a passionate one. All the while my interest was in wanting this man.

Everyone said I was holding back that I had to give in to my feelings but that it was not time for this specific man. He touched me in ways that absorbed my soul, I felt very connected to him. Then all of a sudden we were in time transported to another place. It was like a big yard and I had to relieve myself. I went into this canal and he was there and we watched each other. He held me and told me to release my desires and then he gently kissed me. I desired more, but “not yet” were his words. Everyone had laptops and were connected to a site that said the words about Sunpar and Jupiter,  years (2035) into the future.


There are messages that I am trying to remember that concerned me.

Look inside is coming through and don’t hold back, go. The dream is fading now but I remember coming back here and the apartment was all cleaned up and no evidence of my past life was here. It was clean and functional yet very basic. The door opened this time as the window had been sealed off to outsiders and he walked in. He took me in his arms and told me to CRY, to let everything fall on his shoulders.

It was not to be sexual in nature but about feeling and touch. Then slowly a new group of persons that had gotten news of this group came in the room, they came in through unknown portals.

The kittens, slipping in under the door stripping were back all clean and playing and scattering about as kittens do. Like young children let loose at the playground. It was a reunion again and even tho I did not KNOW these persons they were my family and we connected on all levels of communication and oneness.

OK, I have pulled up the elusiveness now and I just wanted to add that before sleep I asked the universe for dreams to come and I was thinking about kissing and relating on a more feeling mode instead of sexually.
The dream came…

Then this in a universal message:

Your mind is apt to be challenged, dear Scorpio, by a strong force that is calling on you to lift off the ground and take flight. More than likely there is a strong person or situation that enters the scene today to remind you of the importance of the imagination. Don’t get so fixed in your position that you fail to see the benefits of other ways of looking at the same thing.

12/17/2002  (Drug Lords)
I have just awoken from falling a sleep while watching the soaps. Evidently I needed the deep sleep. My head is spinning from the dream that awoke me. I was on the phone with you crying and I was telling you that which had happened. In my dream I was happy and I always took the 4 tiels and Purrby to the library everyday and they kept them and they were a blessing to those visiting. I had finished cleaning my apartment which was in a very large house. There were many apartments, the weather was cool in the dream as it is now but a bit more chilly. I walked across the street and everything was in disarray. Birds flying hither and yon, cats looking lost as their owners could not locate them. Many persons did as I did and left there animals at the library when they went to work or had chores to run and didn’t want them to be alone. Faces of sadness and bewilderment abounded.
All questions had but a few nonsense answers.
The personnel at the front desk (once you could find it) said you were warned to not leave your apartment. I said “What are you talking about” They had fear on there faces, they were telling stories they thought made a bit of sense. In actuality they knew little more than myself.
OK, the persons at the library said for everyone to gather the animals they could find. Only those that were left by them and go back home because these drug lords had taken over and were taking what they wanted and leaving what they felt as trash behind.
I frantically searched and Purrby FOUND me, I located my teils and placed two on each of my shoulders…the parakeets were flying so wildly, I could only recognize one, it was Xanadu (named after Tweety) he was injured and I held him in my palm gently and walked towards home.
On arrival~ nothing . Everything gone, everything.
I went back to the library with a demand for my belongings back. They finally allowed me to see a secret room where furnishings and special items were placed by the drug lords. They told me to hurry and try to make some form of arrangement to get these things out that belonged too me.
In just a few hours they also would be forever gone.
I located Dad’s chair, my desk that the bird cages were on, all the empty cages…looking as if a hurricane had passed through them. Personal papers strewn all about the room.
Inside the cages were my treasured stones and crystals laying amidst the birdseed and feces.
Just hours before the cages had housed my happy parakeets and other sweet birdies.
I found a change purse mama had given me and figured I would need the small amount of change for bartering for food.
There were many children around looking very lost without their games to play.They promised to care for the parakeets as long as they were there. No one wanted to say too much, they were very much in fear of the drug lords and what they might do them.

It was like wandering through a huge warehouse looking for familiar items of my life. Photo albums were mixed in with other families photo albums, same as the household items and furnishings. They(the Drug Lords) had already taken the best things.

Little did they know what dad’s chair meant to me. The large table that I had bought with dad’s approval, he said it was good wood. My picture albums, books, my Purrby, and my birdies.
I was crying so hard I could barely speak on the phone to you to explain, in my dream a man was due home but he had no face in my dream, very nice but I haven’t any clues who. I just knew he was someone who was for me and cared deeply for me.

The key to my apartment of it’s own accord bent in half in my hand.

It was of no more use to me.
This is this first dream I have had in quite sometime that I have remembered so precisely to write down